I want to believe in mystical things but I don’t.

I wanna believe you’re the person I think you are but I don’t.

I think I have this strong desire to be logical that’s always colliding into fantastical ideas. The fantasy has a tendency to take my heart away. Then I guess I’ve become untrue. I’m too tired to go anyways. I want to believe in real things but I don’t and I do. I want to believe in making magic but I don’t. I don’t. What am I doing?

Contradicting myself into a pile of garbage.

Maybe I’ll be able to recycle myself with some staples and paint.

I do have those things laying around somewhere.